Sometime's I will go for quite a while without anything bothering me, but then something will happen to send me into that worry spiral. Last week I took E to a park, a little girl and her dad arrived a few minutes after us and the girl took a shine to E, followed her around wanting to play.
She would say "let's go on the slide next" "sit with me on this" and so on and every time E's expression remained as it had been before the girl spoke, she had no reaction.
Even though I can chalk this partially up to her not understanding the questions, it's the lack of interaction that worries me, she wasn't bothered at all about that little girl. E watched her cautiously for the first few minutes but after that she was back to being in her own world. I gently guided her along to wherever the little girl was playing after she began to give up on E, when at one point the girl began to make some pretend tea and offered it to E, who just walked straight on past her oblivious, the girl completely gave up at that point and I felt like I could cry there and then.
It happens all the time and it makes this journey so lonely. I can't stop and chat to another parent as E plays with their child - because she never does.
Anyway, bit of a self pitying day I think. I know I should be grateful that E knows no different and seems happy with her lot, it's just a little hard to accept sometimes.
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